Reincarnation

I crawled, I walked, and then I ran,

But I stumbled before the flight even began,

So I dragged myself on the runway to fly

As I felt the angel in me slowly die

I sinned and I repented and again I sinned,

Smothering in all the regrets I’d lived

I followed every Iblees— I fed his greed

I crossed the boundaries ’til I wasn’t even me

My spirit so restless, now trying to escape,

All through this nightmare I’ve been awake

The burden of it all, gravity couldn’t defy

And I waved the angel in me goodbye

I bathed in my sins, to an ebony heart

But now is the time that I want a new start

Sunshine has been sucked out of my life;

I am alive yet dead inside

My head betrayed my heart, a head deceived by thoughts,

My soul was filled with endless dots

So I dug a bit more, I searched the depth of my soul

I found the answer there, so I searched no more

The month of mercy has knocked at my door

And I’m now ready to open all four—

Tawheed, Salah, Sawm and Zakaat

To shed the darkness, tearing it apart

Let the light peek through holes

Let goosebumps fill me whole

I stare at the clock as it steals my time,

Cut its hands as it commits that crime

I shouldn’t say soon, I should say now—

Tomorrow is too late for me to bow

30 days are all I have, the clock won’t tick slow

I shall always reap what I always sow

So I burn all the bridges to not go back

Back to the shame, back to the wreck

I found peace when I bowed down to Him

To set my worth there, I don’t need wings

The weathers may change, life may move around

I wouldn’t want to fly because I like the ground

Angels don’t have free-will like mine

They only follow the commandments divine

Over angels, Allah gave Adam supremacy

He repented but I couldn’t continue the legacy